I want to sleep but cant sleep
Because just now in the afternoon i slept from 5 to 10 like that
And I am so hungry
Feels like going down to eat mcd
TT
......
Should I?
Okay so here am I to share my this week activities and some..... struggles
Okay, so tomorrow I am planning to go to MacRitchie reservoir treetop walk with cute Qiuqiu, love going out with her because although she is not that crazy and adventurous kind, she is very kind and pure and easy going which makes her a good companion :D okay got no problem having good times with her so nothing much to say hahaha
Aiya go mcd now? Should I....... but 3am leh....
okay la go lo lol if not mcd workers boring also haha
Yuan lai alot of nightowls here in mcd ha
SO thursday is GL training which have to meet Different kinds of people
Friday bowling with huishan and no idea who else
Saturday NCC youthservice
Sunday working with tjx
Seriously it may sounds nothing special and wrong with this schedule
But actually I rarely like to hang out with too much people, especially those not very close one
I could possible decline every offer i don't need to go, but who knows it's a chance given by God for moulding me into a better and matured self?
I know I constantly need the strength and stamina to face people
Because for me every meeting or hang out with big unfamiliar groups or even 很熟的 group will take something away from me
Digging what you felt comfortable in your heart and making you low battery....
I dont know about other people but they said an INTROVERT will feel like something is taken away everytime thy socialize, like emptying the bottle of yourself.... they said la, which is quite true for me hahahaha
But as a complicated human, not everytime we can use a word or a sentence as an excuse to define us just like that?!
I dont know it's just confidence issue or personality issues or pride issue or weakness issue or just everything together
But i think its time to work on this social problem because no matter what, human are being human, we need each other to move on
Can't possibly shut myself out and constantly live in fear
Even if there's fear, i pray that Lord I will know that You will be there for me and wont forsake me, You are for the weak and the poor to be strong
That's why had the courage to say 'yes' for those invitations
It's actually 没什么啦 but usually I will decline their invitations although I got nothing to do that day, just because I dont feel like to join with 不熟的人 but some of the people still very kind and patiently ask me to hang out hahaha
Okay la, 不要怕别人怎么看你
不管你吃相多难看 还是整天说多lame的笑话 不管穿着打扮多不swag 或者说了多怪的话 哈哈哈哈啊 (always did this)
Remember the song,
"You dont have to try so hard
You dont have to, give it all away"
其实大家都是普通人吗！其实大家都有自己的恐惧！
其实只是看自己如何面对它！
Easy to say, but almost impossible to constantly remember those values
But still, living in this world, we can only move forward by working on and conquering every single terrible fear root in our heart, with what?
His power and strength!!
加油！
不
要
怕
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