How to Love -a song by lil wayne

I insomnia leh...
Wth...

And I just realize what's missing out

If you said Love is like fire
Then if u want to keep it going on, u need to continuously blow it, adding branches, dried leaves etc
Those are Courage

Courage,
how much courage we need to pick the pieces up and try to love again?
I now understand the song 爱真的需要勇气
How to truly love if you are afraid of getting hurt again
How to love if there's so much fear

Sometimes the question is not "how to love?"
It's just "how to not fear?"

So what is fear? fear is like cold water, or just fire extinguisher

We know we have to love,
Love God, love your family, love your friends, love your neighbours,
but there's always too much fear that put off the fire, the fire goes off eventually, leaving your heart cold and black with ashes

And now you realize why your fire could not burn...because there's too much water and too little wind

I mean...
I'm sorry, I am just a coward who dont have enough courage to really love and care for you, I am sorry, I am so selfish that I only want to protect myself from getting hurt because of the fearfulness towards the pain it could pay, because love cost something, how much love you put in = how much pain you need to bear one day
Love do cost something, it has a price, we all knew it...
And I felt most sorry to my parents...almost everyone I am close to..i am sorry I can't truly cares and love you because I am scared..
Yeah, sorry..

Now I finally understand I have been a I-dont-give-a-damn-er for so long because of nobody, but all because of the extinguisher! It makes u weak, timid, a coward, an ostrich, someone who run away...
You wonder why are you behaving like that, you wonder why you cant be genuine, you wonder how can you not trust, you thought you are a victim, and you are finding someone else to blame on
But the truth is:
you are just... afraid...
..........

And I know all I need is that dried leaves and some wind to give it a try for the fire to burn again...!

The fire could be small and weak, but I will try, I will try to ask more dried branches from Him, I know He will give :) His kingdom have plenty bah ... :D

This is all in my head this bloody night  TT and this all starts from one 不经意的 “i dont care" that someone said
And all that links tgt and my brain is in a mess and it doesn't want to dream so here I am!

But now I think I finally could. Hmm haha....