骄兵必败

不能傲呀！

随着年龄的增长
你发现你再也不能靠环境来维持心中的喜悦幸福和快乐感了
很多时候只可以自己心里制造

为什么那么贪心？！

I need to buck up my english seriously!
POC camp is coming!
WHo can practice English with me TT
Joyce is going to throw me group classes too!
What if I can't understand what the ang mo kids are saying? That will be so awkward right?!

Haihhh...The analyst for the test is quite true leh, I do find alot of things cool, in the end become a person that
要这个 又要那个 然后那个也要 统统要
Sibeh greedy!

But I forgot we just have 24hours a day :( you cant possibly have to get everything!

I want to dota i want to play assasin creed and gtaV i want to get 4.0 i want to teach piano earn money I want to join hockey i want to earn cca points i want to take dpp i want to take OE lesson i want to join NDP okay but I have to be a GL(this is not what I want) and I want to complete NYAA I want to join piano club I want to join Astronomy I want to join Akido (although I had already give up) I want to save money to go gaigai I want to do volunteer job in SPCA I want to go sister island I want to explore singapore I want to join a church community I want to try investment but also I WANT TO SLEEP and be lazy too!

All these requires time and efforts I know but just really I henxiang try more different and new things!

What should I give up? TT
You greedy woman!

People come and go
What can you do?

Just need courage to accept things u cant change

ENFP?!?!

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for - and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool - for love - for your dreams - for the adventure of being alive.

~Oriah Mountain Dreamer

Extraverted 8%

Intuitive 54%

Feeling 38%

Prospecting 74%

Turbulent 23%

They tend to see life as a big, complex puzzle where everything is connected - but unlike Analysts, who tend to see that puzzle as a series of systemic machinations, ENFPs see it through a prism of emotion, compassion and mysticism, and are always looking for a deeper meaning.

ENFPs are fiercely independent, and much more than stability and security, they crave creativity and freedom.

lol??

I want to record down! because last time my test all forgot the results liao!:

http://www.16personalities.com/enfp-strengths-and-weaknesses

but the weakness so true!! haha

http://www.16personalities.com/enfp-friends

Their sensitivity may make it too challenging to play with more critical and argumentative personalities, such as strongly expressed Thinking (T) and Judging (J) types, but they do appreciate, even cherish, the company of most anyone who appreciates theirs, and the adventures and experiences they have together are the stuff a good life is made of.

http://www.16personalities.com/enfp-careers

If there's a challenge ENFPs face when selecting a career, it isn't that they lack talent or options or drive, it's that there are so many things out there that are just cool.

hahaha

Repetition, predictability, boredom… while some Sentinel types may appreciate predictability and clear hierarchies, these are not selling points for ENFPs.

http://www.16personalities.com/enfp-conclusion

ANY OTHER WEBSITE FOR MBTI TEST??? I WANT TO COMPARE!!

I see the works

First time being a GL in a club which is just as new for me
So i want to say, thank God for every chance and every person you have put in my life
I have been praying alot for my struggles and I know You have been there for me for every moment
Whether is heart thumping one or whether is be at hard situation which I felt so small and insecure or what
Haiz negative thoughts can literally kills a!

But thank you for every chance
Seriously
I kind of complain alot when everything starts, when you put new things in my life, start from 2013 when I kind of come alone to this unfamiliar place
When I felt so bad and when I am so pessimistic about every situation and places I am put into
but then, I was so tired of being such a "saddist" and came to choose to believe that You can really change all the shits I disliked about myself
And then now right, when I think back of the past, I can feel the difference in me you know or not!

Thank God, only God knows how much struggles and efforts you have had
Like there's not 100percent change or what but then looking back, you know like ya you are "in the process" of being mould!
And I am excited for that!

Hahahhaa!
Thanks God! Hallelujah!
You really heard My prayers leh! Walao! Okay i excited can?!

explaination

 you know before I did the MBTI test long ago, I had never thought I am consider as an introvert and I thought the test could be wrong as I resist to believe that because I have wrong understandings about it like alot of people had

and hor when I finally accepted it I told people about it they will be like walao please la you intro ge sai hahahah which just happened
so many people don't understand!
actually I just want to say

I knew it long ago I am an itv but I just realized that I am using it as an excuse for my behaviour or what for quite a period of time a and it's not good

actually I can do more beyond what I thought I can

haih but you know, then you realize it's just fear.

That chance I agreed

Please drive carefully everyone!
Including me okay i know aaaaa
Drive carefully aaaaa

Dont scare me aaaaaa

不要吓我啊啊啊

Okay so this is about that cca I always talked about
All I want to say is that, actually 他们的人比我想象得好很多很多
I dont even know why I imagined all of them like diaogeh monster aneh
Lol
I really appreciate the time while talking with them, with HuiShan(keep wanting to type PEishan i duno why keep mistaken her name!) and Jin
I always thought Jin is very scary and fierce but actually in the end she is very nice a

Thank God for this chance lol if not I will just forever think that everyone is so scary and unsincere and just want to take advantage of you and just being a hypocrite

Thank God for loving us and let LOVE exist and spread in this careless world
And
Thank God for the miracle of the accident happened earlier in pontian

Thank God I am going to reach Admiralty the next stop, as I am so exhausted

(HELLO THIS SHOULD BE POSTED ON 19/4/2015)

http://www.wikihow.com/Overcome-Insecurity

http://liveboldandbloom.com/07/life-coaching/insecure-reclaim-the-joy-of-being-of-you

haha I think it could be useful!

1 John 4:18 

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.

How to Love -a song by lil wayne

I insomnia leh...
Wth...

And I just realize what's missing out

If you said Love is like fire
Then if u want to keep it going on, u need to continuously blow it, adding branches, dried leaves etc
Those are Courage

Courage,
how much courage we need to pick the pieces up and try to love again?
I now understand the song 爱真的需要勇气
How to truly love if you are afraid of getting hurt again
How to love if there's so much fear

Sometimes the question is not "how to love?"
It's just "how to not fear?"

So what is fear? fear is like cold water, or just fire extinguisher

We know we have to love,
Love God, love your family, love your friends, love your neighbours,
but there's always too much fear that put off the fire, the fire goes off eventually, leaving your heart cold and black with ashes

And now you realize why your fire could not burn...because there's too much water and too little wind

I mean...
I'm sorry, I am just a coward who dont have enough courage to really love and care for you, I am sorry, I am so selfish that I only want to protect myself from getting hurt because of the fearfulness towards the pain it could pay, because love cost something, how much love you put in = how much pain you need to bear one day
Love do cost something, it has a price, we all knew it...
And I felt most sorry to my parents...almost everyone I am close to..i am sorry I can't truly cares and love you because I am scared..
Yeah, sorry..

Now I finally understand I have been a I-dont-give-a-damn-er for so long because of nobody, but all because of the extinguisher! It makes u weak, timid, a coward, an ostrich, someone who run away...
You wonder why are you behaving like that, you wonder why you cant be genuine, you wonder how can you not trust, you thought you are a victim, and you are finding someone else to blame on
But the truth is:
you are just... afraid...
..........

And I know all I need is that dried leaves and some wind to give it a try for the fire to burn again...!

The fire could be small and weak, but I will try, I will try to ask more dried branches from Him, I know He will give :) His kingdom have plenty bah ... :D

This is all in my head this bloody night  TT and this all starts from one 不经意的 “i dont care" that someone said
And all that links tgt and my brain is in a mess and it doesn't want to dream so here I am!

But now I think I finally could. Hmm haha....

Macritchie treetop bridge
Haw par villa
+最近脸很多 pimple

10部

"Its been a long day, without you my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again"

很喜欢歌词是 see you again
不是 byebye
听了比较有希望 而不是终点！

身为一个1到6集都看完的影迷，第一天上映就看了Fast 7 嘿嘿
可是没有以前赛车那种很酷的很炫很刺激的感觉了
根本像 action movie, 差不多进化成 mission impossible了！所以觉得。。。 还好啦
不知道是因为太多不合逻辑的画面 比如说都已经炸到飞起来 脸上才很吝啬的几滴辣椒酱？
还是因为看了Schindler's List 这种超级重量级电影 才觉得嗯。。这般这般
没有曾经那种 “哇哇哇 超好看 一定要看 尖叫。。！“的那种feel 虽然从大楼冲下去那个梗真的是不错
我朋友还说这样来来回回冲不知不觉就可以到一楼了 哈哈哈觉得蛮好笑的
算了，你都不知道有看吗

But 最后最后那个 see you again
真的真的很棒！
电影最好看就那最后几分钟
很有意思  有带出那种
“生死并不是离别 我们还会再见” 的感动
TT
所以我还是真的很喜欢他用
”see you again“

讲到Schindler's list....
这部戏 + 豆瓣的评论 （如果要看一定要看豆瓣长长的评论） 真的是超级震撼
震撼到看了4次 共12小时 hehe
加上看评论就不知道多少时间了
有那种 重新了解生命意义的震撼
然后重点是评论
很好地带出来电影的意义
让整个电影更特别 留下更深刻的印象
一整个星期一直想着想着想着它的非凡意义
所以这部电影，对我来说真的很重要很重要
所以如果没有什么感觉那宁愿。。你不要看

接着还看了什么呢。。
何洁儿介绍的, 我左眼遇到鬼 也是蛮好看的
Se7en(七宗罪）: 是一部很gek的戏，不错啦 可是没有什么教育性哈哈

Lion King: 很可爱！

Sex and breakfast: 浪费我黄金般的时间

撒娇女人最好命：看了超喜欢周迅的！推荐推荐！！非常有娱乐性哈哈哈 讨厌～一定要看哦～

我的早更女友:okay lo

港片：婚前试爱，男人不可以穷（好象是叫这个），两部都看了很想放whatsapp 那个脸 那个眼睛看右边嘴巴不屑的脸

Hehe 到达目的地了！下车咯！

Mcd oniom drumstick 太好吃了！

I want to sleep but cant sleep
Because just now in the afternoon i slept from 5 to 10 like that
And I am so hungry
Feels like going down to eat mcd
TT

......
Should I?

Okay so here am I to share my this week activities and some..... struggles
Okay, so tomorrow I am planning to go to MacRitchie reservoir treetop walk with cute Qiuqiu, love going out with her because although she is not that crazy and adventurous kind, she is very kind and pure and easy going which makes her a good companion :D okay got no problem having good times with her so nothing much to say hahaha

Aiya go mcd now? Should I....... but 3am leh....
okay la go lo lol if not mcd workers boring also haha

Yuan lai alot of nightowls here in mcd ha

SO thursday is GL training which have to meet Different kinds of people
Friday bowling with huishan and no idea who else
Saturday NCC youthservice
Sunday working with tjx

Seriously it may sounds nothing special and wrong with this schedule
But actually I rarely like to hang out with too much people, especially those not very close one
I could possible decline every offer i don't need to go, but who knows it's a chance given by God for moulding me into a better and matured self?
I know I constantly need the strength and stamina to face people
Because for me every meeting or hang out with big unfamiliar groups or even 很熟的 group will take something away from me
Digging what you felt comfortable in your heart and making you low battery....
I dont know about other people but they said an INTROVERT will feel like something is taken away everytime thy socialize, like emptying the bottle of yourself.... they said la, which is quite true for me hahahaha
But as a complicated human, not everytime we can use a word or a sentence as an excuse to define us just like that?!

I dont know it's just confidence issue or personality issues or pride issue or weakness issue or just everything together
But i think its time to work on this social problem because no matter what, human are being human, we need each other to move on
Can't possibly shut myself out and constantly live in fear
Even if there's  fear, i pray that Lord I will know that You will be there for me and wont forsake me, You are for the weak and the poor to be strong

That's why had the courage to say 'yes' for those invitations

It's actually 没什么啦 but usually I will decline their invitations although I got nothing to do that day, just because I dont feel like to join with 不熟的人 but some of the people still very kind and patiently ask me to hang out hahaha

Okay la, 不要怕别人怎么看你
不管你吃相多难看 还是整天说多lame的笑话 不管穿着打扮多不swag 或者说了多怪的话 哈哈哈哈啊 (always did this)

Remember the song,
"You dont have to try so hard
You dont have to, give it all away"
其实大家都是普通人吗！其实大家都有自己的恐惧！
其实只是看自己如何面对它！

Easy to say, but almost impossible to constantly remember those values
But still, living in this world, we can only move forward by working on and conquering every single terrible fear root in our heart, with what?
His power and strength!!

加油！
不
要
怕

The power of 信念

Just finished I am Malala which I had bought so long ago
Finally finished it!

Its, so irony....
我们同岁 同样是女孩
遭遇的却截然不同
我们通常都在埋怨为什么要上学为什么要读书 上学天总想着ponteng or dota or boyfriend
可是世界的另一边
竟然有这个女的 为了上学 把命都赌上了
差点死掉！

It's very hard to describe la, not i want to palialy say we have to treasure our chance to have education, but education is really something that is good for everyone, and we have to know that not everyone is having a chance to be educated, this is not something that we should be taken granted for.
For everything we had taken for granted now, could means so much, as much as her life, to someone else.

ANd this girl is so brave lo, God really save her for a reason! come on, I believe she had many to do after all these, really hope that one day what she worked hard for will come true!

Then u can read alot of their stories which was quite ridiculous and very hard to believe it actually happens!
Like school kena bomb, listen to music or dance or sing will kena killed, murderer was praise publicly...etc
It's hard to imagine as we always thought it's just "stories..", like how could we even understand their fear of facing death living in such threats
How can we understand HERE?
maybe can la, in Malaysia, scared kena robbed or 抓去，but getting shot in head because of going to school seems....... abit bukeneng
Or we secretly hope that might happen? But if it really happened, what will happen to our society huh

And people are so blinded and ignorant because they are illiterate or brainwashed idk why
很难想象 why they can believe in jihad (圣战）
How could they possible believe that they will have beautiful wifes and concubines waiting for them if they were sacrificed in a meaningless war
How could they possible believe that they will have endless treasures storing for them in heaven after they died as a puppet for their mad leader??
Is this something a 21th centuries man still will believe in?

Whyyy??!

This girl, Malala is truly outstanding
But her achievement is not just lucky, it's the effort of a lot of people, including her parents, who taught her the truth, the right things
And u will wonder, how powerful a right belief and value can be,
Then from this book u will see that Its so great that一个信念的力量
可以这样从几个小小的人身上爆发 然后散布到全世界

May God strength will always be upon them and give them sufficient courage for the works that are about to come, for the changes to be done!
Its not about the difference in our faith or religion,
it's about what she and what the people out there believe in, and working for it.

So loso, goodnight!
Btw today 差一点晕死在 bukit batok TT because of period pain la!
the helpless feeling of being 经痛 要死了！却没人帮你  妈妈不在   还 身在离租的房间那么远的地方！
So i took a cab back.... CAB LEH
CAB oh
Cab!
My wallet 破一个大洞哟！
Like this need 17 dollar, 40 ringgit bah? Then 自己一个人昏死在床上 roommate 还以为我很累 其实是无法说话。。
咳。。这里还没有找到了解经痛的人哈哈哈

Lol so today incident makes me feel myself "坚强&独立值" 又+1 了 xD

So hungry!
Goodnight! Goodnght!