Holidays are meant to relax, like a boss! Yo!
But I really miss school life now,not just because of friends out there, but also the scheduled life style, which u HAVE to be much disciplined
Without school, here am I, literally a living worm!!!
Wriggle wriggle wriggle ~(that song)
These few days in sg you can find me in two places: on the bed and in front of laptop, or occasionally in the toilet
Lol the cons of moving into a more comfortable house WITH WIFI
......
And endless Dotas.
Which I kind of thinking that it's really unhealthy,
Withiu you realise, playing dota had became a 精神寄托, it's no more playing for fun and enjoying the game but you want to fill the loneliness which was made up by yourself
You locked yourself in this small world and thinking that winning the game could satisfied yourself but 赢了又怎样! you are not satisfied
You are just wasting your time! TT
not because you play dota but because you find a wrong way to fill your heart but end up you aren't satisfied like you thought you will be therefore you can't enjoy the game like you do finally your days are gone, in a blink!
Gosh, every morning you opened your eyes at 9am, then 10, then 12pm, then 1, and you get up not because you want to, but because you really really 睡不下去了，come on almost 12 hours leh, and the day before the most tiring thing you do is just get downstair and find something to eat, and if can you want to sleep forever to run away from the negativity
Plus, You want to drag till 1pm to wake up because after you played four games it's 6pm already, if you woke up at 9am after 4games it's still 2pm, aaaa then u continue to play after 2 but then you know after playing too much you feel sien, so zuihao is 1pm only wake up start to play
yeah, that makes so much sense hor~
and you ate at 6pm, your only meal, and then you are going to hate your laziness because it will get you thinner and thinner TT 好不容易 cny become fatter and now look at yourself!!
Life is so wormy that I really think using “wormy” despises the efforts of the worm out there TT
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Everyday wake up at 1 and sleep at 3
It's not reallly that late compare to secondary school life but at least during your secondary life you have your mum watch on you
Plus you know this stage of life isn't a stage to waste! You know lo, but you just too 随心所欲 and 随性 to make an effort to change
You dota and dota and dota, dont want to eat, dont want to bath, dont want to move, and get nothing in the end.
Haiz last time I always want to try a holiday like this, do nothing and nothing and nothing and relax, (which I could never try to be this stage back with my mum haha) but it isn't relaxing! It's taking away something valuable from me! It's digging my heart out, making it hollow and empty, like a balloon losing its gas inside, with that sound~
Plus i dont know if i continue to be like this for the rest of holidays, how much of my hair will left
最近头发一直掉! Already short hair I dont know why still can drop
MAybe sleep late bah is like you are freaking tired still you resist to sleep(like after 10hours of standing in watami you still can play 2 dota matches even u reached home at 11 and you are so freaking exhausted u still play and sleep at 2) it's so stupid but you did this all the time, having phd in procrastinating and doing things you shouldn't do!! Clap clap!
And because of this shit life you feel so empty that you dont feel like making a conversation, rarely check your whatsapp, ignoring people's chat, or just fuyan-ing...you dont have the excitement to talk like you have in the school days
And the more you stay at home, the more you dont feel like to meet anyone, the more you dont feel like to have a convo with anyone, the more you thought you are such a 称职 de introvertist
I wish I can wake myself up from this rubbish life and start to do something I have to do
ANd also, stop a few days for dota
But it's so hard!!!
It's like an endless cycle ..... sien - dota - empty - sien -dota - empty - sien - dota
Lol my friends la why everytime when I jio dota always available one... if nobody plays with me I jiu wont play le 除非 i really really 很想玩 (well obviously there's nothing to do with them!! Argh)
Seriously there are so much waste in these days........
It's time to go out and breathe, it's time to exercise more, it's time to improve in your hobbies, it's time to read more, watch more nice movies, it's time to meet people
NOT JUST FREAKING DOTA
And I want to be those guai bao bao who wake up at 8 and sleeps at 10
I want to
I want to!!!
Okay tmr wake up at 8am!
等着瞧！
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