What I need

Today is a very special day for me!

I had always been complaining life in Singapore is boring! ( opps!)
yeah, why? I always think maybe there's lack of inspiring or motivating things that could surprise me!
everyone has about the same schedule, not work then study, or else mrt bus mrt bus mrt bus  
buildings look about the same, there are all kinds of people but i see almost everybody behaves the same or should I say yearn for the same thing
am feeling so empty recently, no strength to get up every morning, feel like going home Pontian everyday, complaining this and that, hate classes, blah blah blah

no motivation, no surprises, no Purpose, what am I doing in Singapore?!?!

haha back to what I want to say
This morning our lecturer showed us this which I think it's very encouraging
It's been so long that I was reminded to be kind and nice to people
because here u will come to know 'this is a dog-eat-dog world' which somehow people around you will keep emphasizing on how realistic the world is
and you forgot the simple kindness the simple happiness you can do to people and yourself

This! I missed these kind of video

Ya I know this isn't that 'REALISTIC'

but it's good to be reminded again that only 'LOVE' could shape a better world today.

and the song it's so nice!! -one day

well, on the mrt just now

I tried to finish the book which I put in my shelf for so long already

by Mitch Albom, yeah the front few page was so boring and I thought of what you told me haha and I thought maybe you are right he is such a boring person! duhh

So there was it, the book was being lonely for quite sometimes

until today I think I need to finish it asap so I can return it to tanxuewern!

-Have a Little faith

I thought it was going to be like M.A. five people you met in heaven like that

erm abit creating his own scene and own story of God

haiz, sadly, it's not!

it's also not like the usual christian book who state those absolute ways that you have to follow

making you feel that you are not enough

or those books which have their own beliefs and write brainwashing stuff against christianity

it's quite an honest book, for me.

hen hao kan!

I haven't finish yet

I always thought I will be rely on God since ESP since what I had promised

but faith can always fade much easier and faster than what I thought

A sentence, A phrase or a word can easily strikes your belief

At one point you don't know who to believe who to turn to anymore

because you are so confused and so tired of Him

you dont know what are you singing in praise and worship

the world told you not to rely on Him

To be frank I am quite confused by those views of John Green's in TFIOS

it's interesting deep and confusing at the same time

for I quite agree on what he said

This is a world full of darkness, alamak what is God doing?

therefore, despite of this he said he want to bring a thing call hope in this real-struggling world

for a moment, I found a similarity that both Mitch Albom and John Green has:
Bringing hope to the readers, in an honest way?

that book kind of present me a thing I need call Faith

for me it's so hard to have it

it is about a man who was graduated in the Religious school yet didn't know what he was doing

running away from the Lord 

and everything related with Him

kind of related

came from a christian family

but don't know what I was doing for most of the time

doubts, questions come like a rushing river

Crushing down your faith bits by bits

His thoughts were such similar to mine ohhhhh dear

and I was reminded by this

He asked the rabbi How to be happy? 

Simple ans to be thankful, to be satisfied on what you have

it's such simple thing but why do we keep on forgetting it?

哎呀 讲华语比较容易带出来 因为我要去冲凉了！要快一点

不知道什么时候  一点一滴地被影响

不再相信简单的快乐

哇 好多人都在追求那什么 

去凑凑热闹跟一跟也不错！

哦？什么？

知足常乐？！

这句老掉牙的话听到不要听 看到不要看 真是的

但不知道为什么 同样的几个字

be grateful, be thankful, be satisfied.

从这书本带出来的感觉就是不一样

看到那里 眼泪竟然突然间掉下来 好丢脸！ 我在挤巴士勒！

啊 巴士上 人很多 people mountain people sea

custom人来人往 

但是虽然人多杂乱

心不像以往那么烦那么乱

突然好像明白空虚的来源

很固执 又不是不知道不应该

但影响力是不容忽视的 你以为你多坚持

可是那过程可以是慢慢地 慢慢地 等到你发现已经很远很远了

对上帝 

很多的怀疑 很多的不相信 很多的埋怨 

也从书本看到不一样的东西

虽然我不敢这样断定这书本从此会让我完全实实在在不再疑惑

因为 有时候那么脆弱得你不知道什么时候会破

但是 它真的有很特别

看到不一样的角度

重新找到那种希望

ESP pastor sebastian给的那种感觉

可能是个人因素吧

然后 我敢说 这是一个你的回答

多少晚上我质疑你

我受不了 还甚至想过不然我就离开你

因为好累 受不了那些矛盾

可是又离不开 

更累sia

很烦 一直问却没有答案

所以谢谢你一让我看到一个这样的书！

你的答案 

总是来得震撼sia! Hehehe sia sia sia

讲师今天给我们看了那个video

就offer我们做这个challenge

感谢身边为你带来好的影响的人

曾经 现在 未来都行

那如果是针对今天的话

我要

谢谢陈雪文借我这本很无聊的书哈哈

谢谢作者的的那特别的八年然后还写了这本书

最重要是谢谢上帝让这本书带给我想要的想法

还有 今天有位小姐 在我搭巴士钱不够时问我：“你还需要多少？”

好感动！让我想到今天老师给我们看的video

这种感觉多久多久消失在人群中

哈 今天感觉很不一样很不一样！

回归吗？有一点这样的感觉哈哈

虽然我不敢保证什么 但是很开心学到了什么 :D

I really thank you my Lord

I have not finish the book but I can't wait to share it already

remember 

HAVE A LITTLE FAITH!