Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Boredom killsss

1st. You care too much on how others think of you and their opinions which might be ur imagination or it's real who knows will produce unnecessary burdens and stress on your tiny shoulder.

2nd. You do comparisons ALOT and you always think u are LESS than who u think are great. You find your pleasure when u felt u are better than one. You are busying finding assurance from people. Materialistic starts here as well i guess?

3rd. You can't find the purpose in your life and you are losing your passion in life. Lack of a motivator.

4th because of different reasons,You feel that u are unfairly treated. Life's unfair and suffering sucks.

5th You don't believe in Heavenly Father anymore and you only believe in yourself. End up losing all your energy and want to have Him back agaim but you feel like you have gone too far.

6th You believe everything He did and have big faith in Him. Still when things don't go according to your plan, you feel disappointed and hope fades. So what now?

7th You believe in yourself alot and in the end you found out that you are not that good as you thought. You feel disappointed and again.. you questioned who u are.

8ve you are tired of putting a mask yet taking it off is like wearing pure gold accessories in malaysia jb or KL. You have to take the risk of being hurt. So basically, DILEMMA.

Occasionally, u felt some kind of complicated feelings which you find yourself dont know how to express it out
It's kind of a mixture of sad and empty or lonely or dont know..?
And It has all kinds of side effects
Insomnia, depression blah blah blah

And most terrifying things it's that
You cant find that specific source which leads u to this kind of mess.
You thought No reasons? Or just afraid to seek?

just trying to sort it out.
Yeah, thoughts do ruin.

But God says:
LET THE RUINS COME TO LIFE.

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