Lost in Thoughts

This is like 强迫症
Iam so damn freaking tired but i  still here
Thrist for going online
Like i had never ever had a data before!

Argh!
I had so much struggles since the first day i stepped into poly
New school new environment new friends new classmates
You just have to get use to things

With some experiences before,
I constantly remind myself to cling on the values I had always believed in
Because is so damn painful seeing the one u trusted so much going to a new environment then becoming someone u might need to know them again as a stranger
And I am very scared that someday i will be one of those too :(

When things are not the same as ur cosy little nest in small pontian anymore
I admire some people smartness which can adapt things so fast like a chameleon but i find myself could just being link to a koala bear
Lol /.\
Now here comes the real thing
Your principles, faith, values, will be challenged
And nobody ever knows either u win or the opposing world wins

So these two weeks i was thinking the same thing again and again and again
Here mixed with people of different kinds
Okay especially girls
To be frank, sometimes i dont know what's in mind of a girl either grr
But like my sis said
Girls like to compare ALOT
This i know la!
And this really damn influence my emotions alot!

I dont know but my brain seriously keep on spinning endlessly with stupid stuffs
...Insecurities...
...doubts...
...jealousy...

But then i think back those days how they told me about God loves u
Seems like imaginary stuff but actually is true and u just have to keep on remembering this
That helps alot
Because He will gives u the confidence u need
U know it when u got it

Haha
somehow as a human u can understand how people will think and say
How rude and hurtful comments and thoughts that will pop out from their mind or mouth
Ah! Taking it as advices is good but caring it too much is not a good thing

I know this since long ago but is hard to apply that because we are always putting our confidence in people
They say u good then u think u good
They say not good then u really think is bad

This is an identity-searching age
Sometimes i also dont know what to do, but i think the best thing to do is always remember Him
To humbly seek Him, putting all your mask aside and take a good careful observation at your heart

there are many destination u can be led to,
I think atitude serve as an very important role in finding your path
So the heart had to be guided and guarded
By yourself,
by Him

Besides theorical knowledge,
I guess this is a life where we ought to learn how to think how to feel how to act everyday,
How to mould Your personalities, your attitude
Through Him
To be a better person,
To make the world a better place!

Lol seriously i am being so serious now haha

Walao i feel like flying now ahhha so tireddddd hehe
So,My 强迫症 should end now!
Goodnight! Haha xD