I chose to follow the boycotting crowd
I chose to be afraid fearing that I will be dragged into the same situation with you
Yeah, but most importantly I CHOSE not to stand up for you because of my lack of courage or to say my cowardice
I regretted
I really shouldn't be such a coward
I knew you are not anything close to what they said I knew you could made silly decisions at times but everyone make mistake right
Guilt came in as I knew I was suppose to be your closest duo who should be supporting you but I didn't do what I KNOW is right, instead I chose to be influenced I chose to close an eye I chose ...
Allright, all those could just be excuses, the fact is just that I chose the wrong side due to my timidity,
that's it.
I am sorry, I never get to tell you I am really sorry I shouldn't have be like that..
I regretted. I should knew how it feels to be betrayed by your closest fellows
What the shit and I still like that
You are actually worthy for me to defend for
I am just so timid
Just so so so so so damn timid
I hate this timidity so badly but I still refuse to actually face it
Haih okay my point is right now some sort of situation happened again
Allright that girl might not be as close as me to you definitely
But I guess I shouldn't repeat my same mistake again lo
Is like despite how annoying that person is or what stupid mistake she had done, boycotting a person like that isn't right lo, you know what, I guess that conflict had taught me that a lot of time is not about who is right or who is wrong, which rumor is true or false, is about choosing to see the conflict in the right perspective
It's not easy but I really don't want to repeat the same wrongdoings because of a four letter word anymore, that four letter word is FEAR of course haha
I mean at the very least I shouldn't choose the wrong side to side lah you know, sometimes I just feel like want to 弥补之前的遗憾.. 也不知道该怎么对你说对不起
我一直记得着这件事 因为真的太不应该了 真的真的很不应该 因为是你 不是别人
但你看 类似同样的事情发生了 我觉得可以做的 最起码要提醒自己不要重蹈覆辙 不要再因为害怕而选择了不对的逃避
这就是可以为内疚做的最好的改变了吧
算是因为你 也为了你 就算你不知道 其实你也最好不要知道啦 因为这毕竟是伤心的回忆
不过至少勇敢一点选择自己觉得正确的决定
这样..对你的对不起也会比较有价值吧
那天看到这句
“命运在自己的手里 而不是别人的嘴里”
然后想到CU
不知道为什么那天她回来 她身上可以看到这句话的受用性
其实不用管人家说什么三道什么四只要自己为自己的选择开心，自己快乐自己幸福自己知道就好
然后想到燕妮(不懂是不是这样写）
从她身上深切地看到 其实就算环境多么恶劣危险 你还是可以选择你心中知道那条对的方向
知道这样做是对的 问心无愧就好
记住 她有得选 我也有 当然你也有
其实就看你怎么选
“命运在自己手里 而不是别人的嘴里”
对咯 怕什么
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