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http://www.everydayhealth.com/depression-pictures/depression-symptoms-to-watch-for.aspx

• Fatigue or lack of energy,
• Insomnia,
• Sleeping too much,
• Changes in Appetite and weight,
• Physical Pain,
• Color appears dull,
• Burnout at work,
• Memory problems,
• Social Withdrawer,
• Unexplained sadness

I used to think that everyone does that, that's nothing unusual about all these and I will tell my brain don't get influenced by all these articles but..
I have been sleeping really a lot recently, erm... not really recent, is these few months, and insomnia happen as well sometimes even with an exhausted body, changes in appetite probably not but a lot of times will not eat because of laziness.. I now not sure whether I confused laziness with lack of energy.. but lacking energy and feel tired of everything is quite true... especially in the morning...physical pain sometimes have... color dont really appears dull or because after i read that post my mind actually trick me to feel the color is dull?
IDK!!! burnout at work... not really because didnt really paying attention..
MEMORY PROBLEMS... i have!!!!!!!!! but it's just always there since young i have poor memory.. ermm... perhaps not really, is after i went to secondary school..
Social withdrawer, now bu hui, but after going back to singapore could be.... like very lazy to go out to meet anyone la.. sometimes during certain moment can be like dont even want to go back to my house (singapore) because something wrong inside me that refuse to see anyone...talk to anyone or say a single word... is this normal too?
unexplained sadness bu jiu shi emo lo.. everybody will have right..?

but these few months I really feel so neng gor gor aneh kuan, alright it will not really appear on the outside but inside keep on feeling tired of everything, don't know why also
especially in the morning, don't have a day I feel like want to wake up
......
plus my room mate and my friends around me they told me they don't have this kind of problem leh
sometimes they will laichuang but is because sleep late or because feeling hen sien
but I will be like, I don't want to wake up because I don't want to face everything around me
it's kind of being a habit for me since don't know when,
I always thought is just lack of motivation... but is like most of the signs is true...

or is it just puberty? (#ewwwwwtooold)
and I start to believe last time what I read about 焦虑症
or what 忧虑症啊

I guess all my emotions in my brain probably turning blue...... ahhh JOY wakeup!!!!!!!
and comfirm  SADNESS touched too many core memories lo....!!!!!!!
haih... just start to wonder what really happens inside out ..