It's something

Djie ask me to join NCC christmas service today so i went lo zz and i wasnt even late but there's no more seat

Hen tao yan de leh got 5000+ seats why still can full got that nice meh heiyer

Then i went to Jem lo there's an alternating plan for this

And guess what?! It's in a cinema!

Walao damn chio haha
Is like watching the movie and actually it's the service hahah hen cool sia

Okay eat Mos burger first

The play was damn good ! It really brings out the true meaning of christmas

It's not Merely just a show

Luckily i came

Seriously, for those who had knew what i was struggling about this whole christianity stuff... erm actually only you hahaha

It's something that i really dont know what to do that i even think of giving up this faith but i cant...! Babi

And makes me more frustrated about Christianity

but kind of knowing something today through tears? And joy haha

Is that it really doesnt matter for all those judmental eyes and the rules the burden and what they keep on telling you to do the church system

yes, i am tired of churches the activities and the thing you have to do as chores and all those hypocrites

Why do i have to be that good girl i am not even close to holy why do i need to act like one hmph

Why have to feel so guilty all the time its Freaking exhaust me outt doesnt really matter

What really matter is that

God is for you

Because it is not the religion that matter, it's the reality of Him

Actually things are really simple and it's human that complicates it

Thanks God for the courage to face the real voice of my heart for its tough to doubt the thing that planted so deep in your heart

And thanks to this preacher 

Joseph Prince

His message really is incredible!

I really feel that something is wrong in my believing when i heard his preaching

And things goes wrong too 

so today is not even 25 and i am in this cinema inside the shopping centre the singer dressed up really formally it must have cost alot to prepare for all this hmm whoo know if he is a hypocrite lol sorry i am not good in trusting hehee

Then after the play, after the worship

The presence of Him is so intense lol and you cried, diulianly, bcause u are by yourself in the cinema and then there's no tissue and u cant 

Lol sunday service is meant to be boring haha and not sentimental

But then it's very comforting La and heartwarming 

It's very hard to explain what it meant to me but yes the service today did mean something for me

It doesnt really matter where, why, how, when and who 

Who cares all these?!

Afterall,it's only about you and Him.

He loves you, He really loves you, thats the most simple thing i was reminded whereby i constantly forget

And other than that, beyond words that could even comprehend

Dont know what to say la

 i dont want to exaggerate things so Just.. quite touching lo what i encounter today

I cant say that i will never doubt and angry at Him anymore because i have to be honest to my heart but i really hope things will get better and better

In Him

so.... thank you Lord for today la!

Haha merry christmas!