They said i couldn't run away from Him

And the cg just ended

Ashley is pretty cute i mean if i am a guy i will want her to be my girlfriend
But it's not the main point of course haha
They are quite friendly
But some people could be a bit judgmental...
Oh! And There's a girl named Teri, and she gave me a Yennie feel which i really like!! hahaha

There's jokes which i dont understand, ya, there's time which i feel like cannot mix in
I just tried hard not to give myself too much stress
Well but overall as a newbie i felt quite comfortable la

the CG itself is good, such a big group ahhh
Talks about vision and intimacy with God
And my mind wasn't concentrating too much because it drifted into other areas, you-know-what
Because i was busy thinking about how many people here are actually sincere and into about  the whole God thing
Is it a culture to dress so smart and pretty to gather together
Are u singing because you are told to do that
Are ur tongues  genuine
What's everyone's motive
Maybe i was too fedup at all those hypocritical actions of some people in the churches, based on the experiences
Do what you are told without having any idea on what u are doing and sing like so faithful to Him without knowing what your mouth is singing
Having comments that because everyone say it, you say it too
To be honest, Is tiring, each time, have to guess what is the real thing, what is the truth

And then i found out what the hell  i was judging and not focusing so who am I to 五十步笑百步
That's right, we often like to say the speck on others before taking out the log in our eyes
i dont think i got the right to say so either

I found out my main purpose should not be thinking all about this
Should be on God
But whenever somebody said some very Godly thing, often i doubt, do u really mean it?
I cant help to think that

Seriously, Lord, sometimes i dont know what to do
Sometimes i thought i know my own needs but in the end i found out i dont even know what i want, and what i REALLY need in my life
And sometimes, not even knowing who i am

Can u please tell me
I know You know,
I know You do