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HEY DEAR, I MISS YOU~

今天十一月三十号
明天十二月一号
转眼间 又是拆信的日子了！

刚才翻翻IPAD一下
发现 那些聚在一起的照片 竟然已经过一年了！
看到很多现在很少很少会见面却曾经看了五年每天看到要吐的朋友。。的照片
现在要吐也没机会了！

突然之间有种苍老的感觉
整个处于思念从前的状态
啊~~

中一中二中三中四中五
每年都有不一样的精彩故事值得回味
虽然也许大家现在的想法 方向 都不一样了
但是曾经的回忆会永远藏存在心底呀~

现在就。。真的很突然很想念中学的日子
幸好

 也许星座有时蛮准 金牛真的是蛮怀旧的
就像喜欢看蜡笔小新 有时候也只是想回味小时候的那种纯真

真是的 还没有准备好就要让我接受已经中学毕业一年了的事实
然后我就要19了！！
这像话吗

#KhorEeNingTeoZhiWeeLeowWoonYiHoShuShanLaiWanqing+banyakbanyakoranglagi
不分先后okay


现实更是明天有读书5点要起来还有Presentation功课还没有做现在却想打dota

#想放很久了的照片

不同角度的自拍总是带来无穷的惊喜 hohoho

Halo i am in the bus now
Zi pai ing

Wearing a tshirt which was bought to be my pyjamas

Kun beh ceh

朦胧美～

Unhappy moments could mean..there's something to learn?

I always thought because of age gap, i will never really understand what you have been through and what u told me have always terrifies me damn alot
I know it's the truth for this bloody world
That's why i am scared, i am unsure of how strong i can be to face it, because i know i am not made of steel but glass
U know even steel has it's fatigue point! (#anotherreminderformetogostudy)

I always thought u are an experience-teller and  u are there to share me all those experience so i will be careful, i wont repeat the same progress, i will be better for my life!

Still, i am terrified because of the waves of negative thoughts from you
Neverending worries flush into my mind everytime after i meet u
It makes me feel so unhappy, of course who can be happy and glad with so much worries

I know, there much more i can get from you other than all those negatives emotion,
Because everything has its purpose

And now then i realise,
U are actually a reminder, or a *warner to me
Not to only warn me how horrible this world is,
but also to remind me how hard is it to live in this cruel world joyously without clinging to something reliable,
it could be your own faith, your own values, your own philosophy of life
But whatever it is,
It has to bring u the sparks of ..
HOPE

I then realise, how important those things are to us, because of how fragile we could be. Feeling sad and worried about uncertainties wont make life any better

Is there anything u are depending on? U are clinging on?
I dont know but i hope i wont lose those important things by the vicious grip of the world

But please.. please.. believe that
Everyone has a purpose here in life,
So are you.
I know i am just a small kiddo in your eye but isnt this the truth from God to us?

It's difficult, i know i m going to face something much more disastrous, but still, i hope i can always keep in mind what's more important thing for us in this life

Last but not least
Not only to myself,
But to you as well:

Be optimistic, be real, be strong
And Also
With the supply of love and hope and faith from above.
Amen.

"I am, a flower quickly fading,
here today and gone tomorrow,
a wave in the ocean,
a vapour in the wind."

"Still You

Hear me when I'm calling

Lord You catch me when I'm falling

And You tell me who I am....

I am Yours."

Precious little things ~

Yes i am back home and lying on the floor of my living room with any pose i like
Kicking the chair
Make the pillow fly!
It feels so damn good xD

And so happy to eat beng he with dad and mum just now
Oishi!! I know they dont usually eat outside, they go there eat because of me!

So happy to breathe the lazy air here! xD

The girls!

U know the moment when the problem is solved!
Hehehehahahahohohohihihi

Alright!
u know people might think u are so freaking weird but who cares, u now have know part of the reasons!! :D

Thanks God, it's not the end but it's definitely going to ease my pekcekness

And hor currently i am falling back to my old self again hahaha
Who cannot live without parasiting on someone's shoulder or arm or poking or beating or punching someone's part of body
Hahahhaa
I think i wont be able to survive this six months without this three girls which have damn different personalities but have the same kind heart!

We have one iceberg which looks like a rapper but literally she's just someone who have all kinds of lame jokes which u will never know the truth if u are scared of the cold!

Next i have this pillow which i really love to poke hahahha and thx God luckily i have at least one person whose thoughts are not that different from mine xD

Then have this girl which is so cute and pure and lovable and kind and genuine which i have met noone like her haha and i really feel very shameful that i once judge her because of her nationality! i am so sorry! But yea i confess to her! Haha

And i learned that it's really childish and 没有素质 to conclude that everyone of a country is the same because of a case or a person!

And today she ask me that:
你们马来西亚人都那么热情吗
Lol and i was stunned by that word "热情“
Nobody describe me using that word and i feel so weird! (Rhymes!)

I didnt act hot or what to her leh i felt so funny hahaha and i never think i am a re qing person leh

How to reply ah how to reply

Are we really very 热情？？！

Family day event!

That day is the third day my hair didnt washed!

The girl with the potato chips is not one of the girl i mentioned hahaha because she is from another class

Anna akana

While i was stalking this particular person, i found another awesome person which I really like!
Her styles her looks her confidence her humor hahaha
This youtuber Anna akana!

She is really my vege leh haha
Her videos and all that
And She has this really special make up tutorial which was like no other videos!
Inspiring and cool! Hope can share but i cant right now...

And then i was so shocked that she said she had a sister who commited suicide six years ago
Which was about.... when she was my age!

Omgosh, i cannot imagine if someone close to me killed themselves!
Her video please dont kill yourself is just... so heartbreaking
Maybe if anyone have this plan to commit suicide, u SHOULD watch that!

And Maybe that's why she could said matured things like:

Make decisions based on love, not fear.

Which i love it so much

U know, when u are honest to ur heart, u will know that sometimes your feelings or emotions or thoughts are not right, and that's the time u can learn how to deal with it, and learn how to change and turn the whole thing positive !!

Just believe Things will be better and better!

XD

I always know I am an introvert

I know the feeling of wanting to stay at home and shut the room being all alone doing stuffs I like

but since when I have such a chance


I want to run away from all this mess
 

I

今天房间好冷清啊。。。

很满足有感的事花再多时间也不埋怨

哈哈

虽然有点不像！
我要给你看得就是这个啦！

This lesson is so boring like biology
And time is trying to crawl as slow as possible

Jejsifwjwjsvueo wjbefirugjeieufhrhwksoehrhew

无聊的时光 时间总爬得比青蛙慢
为什么？！
因为青蛙不会爬

真的是太。。。。。无聊

Cincai tulistulis

在巴士里mrt 很多时候大家都安静地坐着 没事做
然后就很喜欢看不同的人不同的眼神
好像每个人的眼睛 会说着不同的故事

小孩的眼神 充满着对世界的好奇
最喜欢看他们的眼睛！ 有那种懵懂无知的可爱 哈哈哈 然后有时还会带着那种期待 有一点童年的回忆啊

年轻人的眼神 有时候不屑里带着点自以为是
大人的眼神 无奈繁琐厌倦复杂 好像很累 很不care 看太多
老年人的 太多说不完的故事

没有绝对啦 就大多数好像都这样

虽然每人都一双眼睛  但不同的人 它传达出来的讯息  却可以很变化多端

一步一脚印的走到现在  一点一滴地累积经验
眼神里的故事 细细地流露出各种言语表达不出的曾经

从眼神里 才发现
原来时间 在慢慢地改变每个人看世界的角度。

有时候会叮得有点如神 对不起啦如果吓到你 哈哈

还有一种男女老少通用的眼神
嘿嘿 就是往下垂看电话！

自己的看不到所以不知道！ 但现在的话确实是低着头的haha

话说昨天的相聚
说实在我一直在想 
是不是十年后我的思维也会这样被同化
我不要啊！

They said i couldn't run away from Him

And the cg just ended

Ashley is pretty cute i mean if i am a guy i will want her to be my girlfriend
But it's not the main point of course haha
They are quite friendly
But some people could be a bit judgmental...
Oh! And There's a girl named Teri, and she gave me a Yennie feel which i really like!! hahaha

There's jokes which i dont understand, ya, there's time which i feel like cannot mix in
I just tried hard not to give myself too much stress
Well but overall as a newbie i felt quite comfortable la

the CG itself is good, such a big group ahhh
Talks about vision and intimacy with God
And my mind wasn't concentrating too much because it drifted into other areas, you-know-what
Because i was busy thinking about how many people here are actually sincere and into about  the whole God thing
Is it a culture to dress so smart and pretty to gather together
Are u singing because you are told to do that
Are ur tongues  genuine
What's everyone's motive
Maybe i was too fedup at all those hypocritical actions of some people in the churches, based on the experiences
Do what you are told without having any idea on what u are doing and sing like so faithful to Him without knowing what your mouth is singing
Having comments that because everyone say it, you say it too
To be honest, Is tiring, each time, have to guess what is the real thing, what is the truth

And then i found out what the hell  i was judging and not focusing so who am I to 五十步笑百步
That's right, we often like to say the speck on others before taking out the log in our eyes
i dont think i got the right to say so either

I found out my main purpose should not be thinking all about this
Should be on God
But whenever somebody said some very Godly thing, often i doubt, do u really mean it?
I cant help to think that

Seriously, Lord, sometimes i dont know what to do
Sometimes i thought i know my own needs but in the end i found out i dont even know what i want, and what i REALLY need in my life
And sometimes, not even knowing who i am

Can u please tell me
I know You know,
I know You do

Values

我想说说班上的几个人

秋秋 很可爱 很单纯
在一起很难不喜欢她 除非你有偏见
不会拐弯抹角 不会做作虚伪
认识的不会只是面具 而是她本身自己

不同国籍的人 很多地方真的不同
像那个很欠扁 在脑海里已经被巴几千次的那辆车牌
虽然真的有时候是gek 到 想再也不跟他讲话 七窍生烟啊！
可是呢 他那股冲劲 那种对功课很认真 并努力争取的态度
有时候啦 有时候会很羡慕

刚开始会因为有些physical的差别 也因为从不同的人听来的种种偏见 所以会不习惯 会好奇 会不屑 lol
可是久了你会发现

他们对自己的态度 原则 观念 还是单单的品味 语气
是不会轻易因为环境还是为了融入而改变的
这很难得诶！ 有时候好钦佩啊
因为有多少人因为环境的影响而失去了自我啊

我喜欢你们可以这样做自己
就算有时候有些固执 自我
但你有勇气，并 自爱 自重 自惜
是很多人更应该学习的啊

那种很真诚，很 真心的感觉
其实并不是很容易再找得到

相互效应

你对我的理所当然
就好象我对我父母一样

damn like this quote

"放下不甘心，並不是說原諒他了耶，而是放過自己，妳的心裡那麼多的不甘心，那快樂怎麼進去啊？ "
_by 程媽