I can do itttttt..........!

Once upon a time, Mum used to told me my richy dagu and gu zhang is the taogeh of a bunch of international schools in KL
She told me all her kids studied in international school
And the kiddos in international school are mostly handsome and pretty angmo,
mum said they've got happy schooling hours everyday,
handsome and beautiful angmos everywhere,
no caning,
NO HOMEWORKS!?

Wahhhhhh! then I got so admired those who could study there!

But yeah the school fees...even if my parents sell my rambah 47 also cannot afford
So it was a high class place for me as a little 平民, stay far away in my little dream!

I even dreamed before in my stupid night dreams i went to the school as a poor kid and found a handsome richy guy who likes me wahahhaa sounds so korean drama (金丝草？）

Then today, i actually got a chance to visit one international school
I know it's a bit sua gu to be like wah wah wah but hey! it used to be my small silly dream!
i went there to actually watch a teacher to conduct a piano class with the kids
And the kids are soooo damn cute lol gold hair blue eyes
if CU is here all the kid's chins are in very dangerous situation!

So is a kind of my dream come true situation, in another way
Okay, it's not that luxurious which i dreamed of but yea, it's really alot handsome and pretty angmo kids inside all right, ahhhh cannot take sides right haha,
So ALL are cute!!!
They are about 5-6 years old(xiaoxin's age)
But i can't imagine myself whose the one standing in front teaching them to wriggle their fingers
Attention attention! Low self confidence here ahhhhhh

First is because i have no idea whether I can conduct the class nicely or control the class propely
Of course they are no kiampak labixiaoxin's pattern there,
But they've got those accent gosh i felt so nervous when i cant understand what they are saying TT

And is not like those gausan kiampak kids you can hit them and scold them  if they misbehave erm but here their parents paid so much for 爱心教育?
得罪不起啊。。。
Haiz, i dont know..
So i start to wonder am I able to do this?
Mama said I just got to try, who knows if i never try?
Ya lo, but then i realised my english is so... singlish which the event PL commented this yesterday
:(
And my grammar i know i know it's jialat sometimes i know!
I really need to mend my English ASAP cannot lose those kids sia haha oh no they don't use sia

I dont know what to do, i dont know if i can do this, i dont know if i can cope it with studies, i dont know if i can act confidently in front of the kids!
And plus i dont know what to wear lol my wardrobe in Singapore are basically just plain tshirt and shorts which doesn't look professional, abuden is those 睡衣 look!

Hmmmmm

Is okay, chill chill chill!
You gotta try!
Train your english and ask God for confidence!

Just being a bit insecure now,
But I know He will be with me all the time!
And Sorry Lord for what I did this morning,
It's always like this, recycling but I am really sorry. Ahhhhh

Nothing much to say anymore hmm, just thank God for everything!
Ahh tonight gonna be soooooOOOO lonely .....!

Ahhh luckily I havent watch Annabelle ==
It's still okay!

Oh and one thing to be grateful for today:
Grateful for being alive and able to have the chance to taste French Rose Tea!