The Solar system

蛤
你又不是太阳
干嘛要地球绕着你

就算你是多耀眼的一颗星星
但身边的行星都是有寿命的
没有谁会永远兜着你绕

然后呢？

方文山的歌词！
“…没有地球 太阳还是会绕
没有理由 我也能自己走”

这就是然后

无法改变什么
能变的就只有自己

地球走地球的
太阳走太阳的
不就得了吗？！

Chubbby twins

昨天梦到。。
出席一个好像是葬礼还是婚礼不知道哈哈
然后猜我遇到了谁？！

哈哈哈  消失很久很久的
文强 文胜！

双胞胎 长得超像 平凡人是无法分辨的哈哈
然后长得还和我印象中的一模一样
然后声音还是很像蜡笔小新
（没办法最后一次见到他们是6年前的事 就停留在那里）

以前左边一个文强 右边一个文胜
老师叫我坐中间 管他们两个的功课
哈哈哈哈
就是那时候我发掘了我捏人和拉人家耳朵的功力！ 娃哈哈
左边拉 右边捏
哈哈 好不过瘾！

还记得三年级的时候 因为每天相处的关系
好像只有我会分哪个是文强文胜哦哈哈哈

文强的比较不记得 只记得他很爱讲话
可是过后就换掉位
然后文胜就保留那可怜的位子
日子照过。。

讲真的 他画画真的是很厉害很厉害数一数二呀
和他比过赛 可是怎样都画不出他画的蜡笔小新的味道
而且他画机器人 以前很流行的那个什么gangdam
是够强了！！
而且那时候才几岁！！

不记得很多
不过我知道他们说过很讨厌回家
因为姐姐很凶
还和我形容过 可是都忘了哈哈

其实他们的笑话还蛮好笑的
然后很喜欢一有机会就酸我
大了翅膀就硬了！

咳 然后毕业典礼以后
就再也没有看到他们了。。

算一算 其实我们幼稚园就认识了哈哈
小学还同班
然后还坐在一起那么多年

不知道现在变怎样了
还是一样圆滚滚的吗？ 哈哈
脸还是那么好捏吗
还是变很ahbeng...
然后满口脏话？

咳 好像都搬家了

其实还蛮想知道的
昨天在梦里遇见他们整个超兴奋

可是 那就只是 梦啊

走过经过闻到的那股飘香烤肉味
肚子就会不经意咕噜一下
口水就会不自觉生产一堆

啊～～～
等会儿又要忍耐那让人欲罢不能的诱惑之香

这世界。。
好残酷啊 :(

Haha

好累啊 可是很想在这里说声

嗨 想说说你呀shui mak mak的女孩！ 哈哈哈哈哈
欢迎加入哦！ xD
你写的东西正合我胃口也！
怎么会白痴呢 那么可爱 哈哈哈啊啊

Okay 打招呼完毕！
睡觉！

Ps. grumble xia
Why is it afternoon shift tomorrow!!
TELL ME WHY TT
should i just quit? Or stay then continue to chao da...?!

Sleep la!
Goodnight sawagcup!

Oh and btw
My sports car xD

and credits to stephanie too ! :D

Even if things go out of the plan, just believe Him!! XD

Stupid yellow

My sports car TT
U made my heart cold when i look at you
Why is that result of the color look like THAT!!?
is not what it suppose to be..!

Is like things always goes out of the plan
Why?
Because u never know
ur plan is not sovereign

sometimes you just dont know what to expect because it's just ..
THAT unpredictable

To have such strong belief that u got to leave everything to God isn't so simple, honestly it's abit ..against reality
Plan and follow?
I dont know but why issit seem to be against each other

Actually is just totally going out of the topic
Or should i just said being inspire but not reay have some kind of conclusion either?
Lol

Oh.. and Btw...
That fararri,
ni zen me laaaa? :(

第一天做waitress!
其实不算
就只是端盘子和收盘子

好狡猾啊。。
叫我抹碗然后在那里休息
第一天！
看你们好像一直在忙。。就算了吧！

就这样
有28块也！
哈哈

俞承豪的单眼皮aww

因为一个月一次的刻骨之痛
我什么都不能做！
只可以蹲在椅子上找些可以转移注意力的东西
录的蜡笔小新全看完了
却还在作痛地想死 又不能睡觉还害我跌倒超大声大腿黑青。。。
Then无意间看到那天录的
叫什么 <快乐寻回犬>! My heart is...?
好像很开心的戏 而且影评很高
就随便看看吧

哪里知道
戏结束后我整张脸惨不忍睹
（照镜子时发现的）
眼睛微肿到不能张太大
还不敢出去怕auntie吓到哈哈哈哈

不过肚子过后就好了！ 哈哈哈

是不是很神奇呢
好神奇的戏呀！！
想不想知道有多神奇吗？

那就快点去看吧 :D

没错 我是在免费推销那部戏啦
因为它跟我的痛一样

刻骨铭心呀～
久久不能忘记。。

那你还在等什么呢？！
别错失良机了啊！！

要多喝水补水先啊～

你寂寞寂寞就好

没有人的时候也显得不那么珍贵

落寞的夜一下子就过了哦 加油！

只要忍多6个小时

一个个热情如火的屁屁又会重新爱上你啦

哈哈好无聊

人家第一次看到这样嘛

菜狗's quote

"
You must face the truth
Hiding is not the key to the problem
"
Hahahahaha suiran is very ou ran de
But...dont know why..erm

Wo zai zuo shen me TT
Why keep running away
from books from exam from stress
You know this is not like the secondary exams
but u just cant face it
Because is too important for u
And that's why u cant face it?!
What?!
What are u doing?!?!

Argh
Is quite right actually..

WAI?

YOU DOUBT YOURSELF

AND THEN YOU DOUBT EVERYTHING YOU BELIEVE IN

连自己都不相信那 还要怎样相信自己相信的所有

是不是这个时候 

什么都只是徒劳



Everybody is growing up finding their right path
but it's like, am opposing the law of nature

it's like... EPC...

life = current
me = resistance

resisting stubbornly and then almost becoming an insulator.

黑色幽默

就只是一个要完成你给我的期望的机器人

难怪读的是mechatronic

是要了解自己怎么运作吗

偷拍哈哈哈

咬字很清楚 一个字一个字的

“来我们来玩些小游戏”
“来玩石头剪刀布！”

可是 左边那个一直输 哈哈
嘴嘟嘟：
“你都没有让我赢！”

“怎么让呢 赢是要自己争取的”

Squeezing through to reach the beam of light

咬下去！

嗯 很硬很结实地油光发亮

看起来更加可口美味

许伊宁有在一定会水灾

口水灾

哈哈哈哈哈

神经病

I know this will happened!

Every time when I think I had to come back Pontian I dont feel like coming back

because I know

every time when I was back  home I don't feel like going back anymore!

I hate this moment

argh... This slow paced with huge and broad space around you

I got so used to this, the old lazy tempo of me haha slacking here at home doing nothing but sleep and eat like a ...b a r b i e

Here is so green with so damn many trees around you that you feel sleepy and not-in-the-mood to work all the time haha (maybe only for me?)

and it's so spacious here! I can run and jump around in my house without bumping into things!

then hor I can even drive my precious little xiao hong : (  go here go there no traffic jam no people squeezing you (hamburgering you)  xiao hong is small , but still much spacious than in a MRT or BUS where u have no place to sit everyday

这里很大很宽很舒服  差不多就是饭来张口衣来伸手

哈哈哈 

可是，我要回去了!

..hm maybe wont be coming back that frequent anymore...? I guess?

But I know my mama miss me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha how?

好羡慕好羡慕好羡慕

然后

好远好远好远

Real CCA

Sitting in the bus, everyone must be hating me so much right now wahaha!

Because.....
Of my smell~~~ hahahahaha

Hold on la guys.... i am reaching already!

So... today my eyes were opened once again!
The thing goes like this
I bravely joined the kayaking sports today! Just went alone! Hoho
i just want to exercise and i feel like trying something new

And... ya everyone was right
Their cca couldn't even find a bit of similarity from malaysia one, okay maybe my school one
They never cheat themselves like how they did in dato!

I thought their training might be serious, like the taekwondo training i used to go
But no wor!
Is much MORE THAN THAT many many times many many many times

It's been such a long time since i exercise, one year and a half
And the first start like this is really like an explosion to me!

For this little training, alright not little as they took training pretty serious!
I was taught that we cannot laugh, cannot chit chatting, and cannot complain
This is not really something also la
So we ran, and keep running, around the whole school!
And then in between we need to do pushups sit up and others exercise
Okay, i thought my sweat can fill up a bucket already
After exercise u can see the floor with puddles of water hmm sweat

Before the end of the training, we have this pole that have to lift the whole body up ...
Do for six times in a round and six rounds to go
Hehehehe i cant accomplish that

At the end of the training,
Our senior told us a very surprising truth
We ran for 7 rounds in the school
Guess how many km?
8
.
2
K
M
!

Siao ah!
I never thought i could run that much !
Even our old school marathon less than 3km, or maybe 2..
I already felt like fainting or dying..

So in this case, i actually felt like i AM dying...
And then they just kept on asking u to go, encouraged u
But in my mind i was busying thinking: will i die will i really die of heart attack?!!?
God help me please dont let me die......!! lol
Lol thank God i am still here

And actually u left no strength to complain much
Is really something that i never tried before
And in the end, the last round i just walked
Because as what they said, stitches? I dont know, the pain from your stomach, left side
Cannot even run

But today, i can proudly claim that i accomplish an eight kilometres running!! Without myself knowing i actually did that!
And also .....feel so proud that i am still alive!!

Btw... this is only a training...
Honestly, they look like superwoman to me that have supernatural powers

One of them actually told me that the first week there were about 20++ people quite many
And now the remai numbers are actually less than 10
Applause for the survivors!

I actually felt so difficult to stand up after sitting down on the floor and the world could spun!
And i dont know what's the problem with my shoes my feet actually got that what blister is it? I dont know la shuipao! Shuipaos! Hmph!
So some truths for tomorrow
Cannot get up on time for school
Cannot go to toilet which requires to squat
Cannot feel my legs when climbing the stairs
Or the worst!
Cannot even get down from my bed to start a day? Haha well...

Actually they just feel normal i guess as they got use to the discipline of sports
And they've got that kind of serious attitude for training
But hey,i am from malaysia TT
We slacked and played a fool around most of the time..
So this really open up my mind!

They dont fool around cheating yourselves
Dont just toulan and relax and find the easiest way to go through like what i used to know....

Aiya, so I kind of learn something again la
How strict it could be...
How serious and discipline they are
How faithful they can be into this sports
How persistent and how determined
How passionate they are for things that are important to them

And erm....
how long have we missed this kind of attitude....?

Alright

But Btw...i am still wondering ...
Whether to join again next Monday?

P/s i feel quite glad to know the group of girls today! As everyday in my class there's not much girls to know! Class girls are all very nice also btw! Qiusi is still as cute as usual as she can be
Her dont try to pretend and her real self is really so originally cute!

And i thought of last time in dato always feel like why our school so little amount of boys
Then now ironically i wonder why so little amount of girls around u everyday...hmmm..
actually not a big deal also la
But u know when things are rare u actually cherish them more
And i like my girls' classmates alot hahaha

So get to do some crazy exercise with a bunch of girls is really something that makes u feel quite happy about it!

Haha is abit weird as girls should be attracted to guys environment more ermm normally?
but i guess maybe i was too used to the more-girls environment in dato!

Tsk, no more loliloso as..
I smelt my smell again!
Emergency!!!
Need bathing!! Haha

Honesty, optimistic?, confidence

"當其他人期望你也一起扮演受害者、當他們抱怨和呻吟生活的不公平，你將會讓自己處在一個容易不快樂的環境裡。相反地，你應該拋棄會讓你感覺不好的想法，你不需要消極的想法，那不會讓你的生命更好，消極的想法解決不了任何問題。"

Think possitively and stop influenced by negative thinker example like...m.... hahaha

"所以，不要試圖隱瞞真相與欺騙，雖然這需要一點勇氣和力量，但它是真正讓你充滿自信生活下去的唯一途徑。"just be honest, although sometimes... it's really just.. cannot!

"你會快樂或不快樂，大部份取決於你的視野，而不是周遭的環境"

Although seems belittling Mr.Environment, but it got its truth in this advice thou.

#somehard-to-apply-but-important-for-meadvicesthatgotfromfacebookandiamgoingtosleepnowforreal

Hehehehehe!

Just got to admit it

One thing I realized from this very special book,

is that,

You can never fully understand everything
and that everything you had known earlier can change in a blink of eye
The same concept, you can see it through different way and have different understanding every time

And one more thing i realized,
how proud I am that I thought I knew a lot,
how vulnerable, how short sighted
and finally
how childish I am.

Actually, this had been taught to me in one way or another through experienced adults, through church activities
but now I getting to understand what it really means.

Hmm, and this author seems likes to be sarcastic in christianity , like a lot more authors
but still, his thoughts really deserve a thought about it!

Anyway, I like this honest Hazel Grace!!!

要专心听一堂听不懂的课真是极端考验也！

#
Why ignore, that's the truth
:(

Turning it on and Shutting it down again,

No cant be that pessimistic

or maybe Sleep awhile then Restart it again.

Electrical Principle Circuit TT

其实发现她们人都很好勒 哈哈哈

班上有一个女生有一个那种小说型的名字
叫 秋思
秋天的思念！很浪漫有没有！！！哈哈


其实我觉得他们中国人的名字都很好听勒
还有车牌子的
 丰田？不懂写得对不对 英文名应该叫toyota :D

不知道为什么叫她mona 秋思很好听啊！！

本来还以为说她很安静很严肃但其实也还好
她很漂亮啊  而且很可爱耶！
怎么办 我很喜欢看她在干嘛

这样写出来好像有点恐怖
不要想太多！没有别的意思
Lol我干嘛要解释

本来想说姐姐们整天说大多数的中国人怎样怎样
每次听都是不好的形象 所以渐渐被影响哈哈

可是看来不可以乱下定论呀  一个不代表全部

单纯觉得她很可爱想写下来 就这样！掰掰！

然后，我要很坚强地说
EPC 我来了！！！
 

ji wei

OH AND BEFORE 12 STRIKES

I WANT TO SAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEO JI WEI!!

Although u might not read this but hope u can be happy everyday and not get emo because of same thing again!
u are not that fragile as u look actually
and I hope one day u can know God hehehe

okay nights! :D 

很长不要读

“why take life so serious? is not like you are going to get out alive”

人家讲，到头来还不都是一场空

虽然可能是给那些很压力的人要放轻松看的

可是像我这种懒惰没有什么目标的人看了就是

哦 是咯 那么努力干嘛 那么认真做么
所以生活继续因为这句话更懒惰 更懒散 哈哈哈




但如果一直这样因为害怕不敢梦想

是不是就只可以随波逐流？

就这样让它空下去吗

就这样死了吗 

活着就是为了要读书 毕业 做工 结婚 生小孩 然后看小孩长大 然后死掉？
这是目标吗？

就算有梦想也都会被残酷的现实打败 

因为梦想中很多是完美的 但是这世界不可能完美
就好像每一个output都不会100%和input一样
哈哈 最近读太多这种

因为怕被打碎 因为怕残酷的事实
所以就只可以这样 大家怎样你就怎样 过所谓最安全的生活吗

不知道 可能过多几年就真的真的千真万确要进入这个社会咯~
哈哈 所以开始会听到很多以后要怎样怎样为自己打算
别人定义 不应该说别人 是大多数人定义的成功未来是要怎样怎样

但到底是为了什么呀
是因为大家都这样做？
还是因为这样可以更舒服地过一生

我不知道 我好像没有梦想也没有什么目标 就算有也是很短浅哈哈
所以只可以这样跟大家一样？

还是我有  但是跟着跟着世界的脚步 就淡忘了。。

以前是想God's plan 看下一步他要给我什么就什么
PTI让我很想信这点
他们说上帝的计划是最好的
但是事实好像。。
大家都会为自己做最好的打算
如果没有 以后就等于没有保障
是啦 可能我信心很低
其实我不知道为自己打算和跟随God's plan要怎样相逢
你讲要完全跟住 可是还不是为自己想这想那 呃 有矛盾
如果完全相信 干嘛要计划那么多？

可是不计划好像不太真实


目前为止可能我知道我想要做些什么 我的梦想是什么
但是又会想到 如果我真的做到了 又怎样？又多了不起？
而且哄 没有一个很大很大的动力
然后他们就会讲反正在世上都是一场空 所以do for treasures in heaven
可是讲真的 我一直觉得这很没真实感

啊 很偏题了
因为这些是心中好久的疑问啊 ！！！！！
之前认为有一个很确定的答案了！
可是 骗自己干嘛
明明是人家给的答案 自己都没有接受过那个答案
还硬硬逼自己了解 可是根本都不懂

漫无目的 人云亦云
发现自己到这个阶段 好像也开始这样

我想应该要好好真正了解一下自己的梦想和目标
虽然听起来很奢华 不真实
但是如果没有这些
就只可以人云亦云

就算到最后是一场空
过程是精彩的好过从头到尾都空空如也吧

嘿嘿 其实为什么会想那么多勒
因为进击的巨人咯！
看了就觉得其实有好几点很像啊 可能是那么喜欢的原因

超好看的！里面很多台词我很喜欢啊 虽然不是全部都赞同啦
因为他们没有God!哈哈

但是因为他有梦想 所以他有目标 所以他没跟随波浪乱乱流
情况很像 我如果在里面大概就是那个胆小鬼
大概就是跟全部人一样要安定
人家讲什么就跟
是没有什么不好啦 安全 平安
可是从那个小鬼身上看到
时间一去不复返 失去的梦就再也不会回来了啊

是不是要看自己要什么
是。。。
梦丢一边 过计划形的生活
还是过到很辛苦可是是跟着梦想走

有句话说得好
“如果什么都不肯放弃 就什么也改变不了”
好不好 二选一 都要自己决定啊啊啊啊啊

每次说跟God's plan。。就什么都不用做了吗
我还是要做决定不是吗


不知道十年后会怎样
不知道会不会跟大家所谓聪明的计划进行 安定安稳
还是看起来像个蠢蛋地顺着逆流游泳？！

还有一句
“如果你觉得是对的就做
因为不管你相信谁做决定， 永远没有人知道结果！”

上帝知道！
可是 他说的是人
对咯 所以不可以别人说什么都照单全收
好吧 因为很多不确定 很多不懂 很多疑问
也没有一定的标准答案
所以到最后的结论还是要问上帝！
因为没有人知道结果 除了他

绕了一大圈

okay but afterall at least now I know,
I need a dream,
not from others
but from God and myself.

Goodnight! :D